bordering on miserable

Bordering on miserable about my hair. There is swearing and unhappiness behind the cut. Peanut gallery remarks will not be appreciated.

I looked at my hair more closely. I have now got two sections of burned-off ‘bangs’ that are about eyebrow length at the edges of where I did the bleaching. *sigh* It’s melted, effectively. Not as astoundingly as it did the time I *actually* melted my hair and it turned gooey and stretched in my fingers, but melted.

I do not know what I’m going to do right now. Bleaching it again in any sense is idiotic, even if I have it professionally done, but god *damn* I am pissed off about fucking my hair up RIGHT BEFORE X3, when the fucking movie has been a major motivator in me not cutting my goddamned hair *off*. I may go have it professionally bleached before the movie and then cut it all the fuck off because it will be so utterly destroyed.

The alternatives I can think of are basically along these lines:

1. redye it all to brown, which would look better than it does right now, anyway;

2. cut it in some fashion or other, bangs being the most obvious choice to get rid of the damage and retain the length, but also the most fucking annoying to grow out, plus I really don’t want bangs and long hair for some reason. It seems so fucking Daisy Mae;

3. cut it _all_, maybe in a longish Louise Brooks cut, which looks fantastic on me, and which I’ve never worn when I was this thin, or;

4. cut a lot of the damage off, by, say, cutting it all to chin length or a little longer, and trying to be patient while it grows out again.

Despite all my bitching, I don’t really want to cut my hair right now. I’ve spent this fucking long growing it out. I could also cut the bangs/front/whatever you want to call it to chin length and mitigate the damage, but that leaves the stupid burned-off bits, and I really feel like if I cut bangs I will be so pissed off I’ll just want to cut it all the fuck off.

Would you like to hear the other irony? The other irony is that if this new wave my hair has achieved turns out to make a sharp bobbed haircut not work on me, I’m going to be REALLY PISSED OFF. I’d actually come to terms with having stick straight hair. Where does it get off changing the fucking rules on me?

The biggest plus side to cutting it all off is that I would have almost completely undamaged hair when I started swimming. That would be really good, if I’m going to be dunking my head in chlorine several, or even a couple, times a week.

Fuck. Just, fuck.

10 thoughts on “bordering on miserable

  1. Do you have a pic of what happened? Maybe it’s not as bad as you think? It’s amazing what hairdressers can do these days, so maybe it’s salvagable?

  2. I haven’t seen the hair, but I’m sure that it looks much less bad to the rest of the world than it does to you. If you’re unhappy with it, though, get a recommendation for a good stylist and pay them to salvage it.

  3. Aaaww. *sympathy hugs*
    Go talk to a hairdresser s/he will be able to help you make the best decision for the health of your hair. S/he may be able to do some magical deep conditioning on it to help save it too.
    My hairdresser (she became my hairdresser after The Incident) helped minimize the damage after I had the worlds worst perm EVER (which included breakage at scalp level, caveman like stringy hair, dry, dull and fried hair. You get the picture).
    It can’t hurt to get a professional opinion.

  4. I have to say that I’ve never come out of a professional bleaching job feeling like I’ve got damaged hair, so it couldn’t really /hurt/ anymore to go have a professional poke at it and see what can be salvaged.

    On the other side, my hair is a bizarre and alien beast, so it may just be me.

    And my hair pouts at you about the bangs and long hair comment. :)

  5. I’ll do all kinds of stuff to my hair at home, but bleaching isn’t one of ’em. I’ve had lots of positive (and I’ll grant, a few early negative) experiences with pros doing the bleaching … when I was in full-swing “keep it blue” mode, I did the bluedye at home and the bleaching with a pro. And, fuck, ow, was it expensive to go that way … but I really think it’s the way to go.

    I’m insanely sorry to hear it went down the tubes for you. :(

    Here, let me distract you with shiny! X3 danger room sequence, ho!

  6. I say either go with a Bette Page cut (bangs to deal with the damage but keep the length) or just cut it off in the Louise Brook style. I would go with the second choice, cause I think you looked cool in it.

  7. The peanut gallery is capable of and does indeed send its condolences and best wishes, and it doesn’t blame you in the slightest for not wanting to risk that it might say something unbelievably stupid in a misguided attempt at humor and apologizes for past instances of making that error.

    The peanut gallery further regrets its inability to offer any useful advice, but it does suspect that the “consult a pro” crowd are on the right path.

    The peanut gallery will now sneak away quietly before anyone feels the need to inflict injury.

  8. Oh, man. *hug* I feel terrible for not pestering you further earlier about what kind of bleach you wanted, before sending out the dye. I will definitely be sending you happy-hair-karma wishes until you settle on a course of action and have (good, damnit!) results.

  9. Having it professionally done before the movie and then cutting it off with a vengeance does sound wonderfully cathartic…

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