So I watched Armageddon last night, which is the first time since Sept. 11th that I’ve watched a disaster movie.

To my surprise, it was actually somewhat less fun to watch meteors coming down and thrashing NYC than it had been previously. And I remember thinking, when I watched it in the theatre the first time, “*Wow*, that looks real!”, particularly when the top of the Empire State Building crashes to the earth and there are billowing clouds of dust and people running and screaming.

And I thought, like so many other people did, “Wow, that looks like a disaster movie,” when the WTC came down.

Except last night, watching Armageddon, I thought, “That doesn’t look real at all,” because I’d seen what it really looks like when a skyscraper collapses to the ground. And seeing the WTC with the top corner knocked off and smoking in the movie was sort of . . .

I hadn’t thought it would affect me.

Against the odds, I swam this evening (I’d been going waaah! some more, and I’d thought perhaps if Ted didn’t go to his martial arts class I wouldn’t go swimming, but suddenly I decided to) and had a fairly decent swim. I was sharing a lane most of the time, which always takes it down a notch — well, not always, but it did in this case — but I still did a timed 500 and came in at 8:45, which is pretty good, given the shape I’m in. Then I did 3 100s on 2 minutes, at 1:30, 1:40 and 1:43 respectively; had I done two more, I probably would have been riding 2 minutes exactly pretty hard on the last one, but since the final 500 was supposed to be my warmdown, I did a hard 50 backstroke (45 seconds; shoulda done better than that, but oh well) and then did a really lazy 150 to actually warm down. Overall, a pretty good swim. I think I’ll go to the gym and weight lift tomorrow. 2 days in a row of swimming is seeming like enough, at least at the moment.

swam: 3000 yards

Ok, this is sort of fun. When I get hungry, I’m supposed to tell Sarah to eat something, because she’s out of the habit of eating (has been as long as I’ve known her) and she needs to eat to get her metabolism going so she can lose weight, and *my* hunger reflex isn’t broken, so I’m hungry and I’ve sent her to get food to eat. *laugh*

And *I* got an apple instead of a brownie. I’m proud of myself!

How cool! Deirdre, who can do things like this (and this and this and this), is apparently being a model at MacWorld. They’re doing touch-screen drawing classes, and Deirdre is the Woman form. There’s apparently a Man, too, but she’s never met him. :) Modelling for SIXTY THOUSAND PEOPLE!

She said she wore a unitard the first day and it crawled right up her butt. Modelling for SIXTY THOUSAND PEOPLE. Ooop. :)

The thing I hate about paying bills is that when I’m done, there’s no money left. :) However, it seems that my new pay schedule is on opposite weeks from Ted’s, which means there’s money every week, which may make the whole thing seem a little less like lurching horribly from paycheck to paycheck. Hey, I take what I can get. :)

I had a *great* swim tonight. I did about 3200 yards, and I could have done another thousand if there’d been time. Furthermore, I did my last 500 in under 9 minutes, which is hardly competition time, of course, but I noticed in the first fifty of it that I was kind of fucking around, so I scolded myself and put some heart into it, and it was fantastic. If I keep adding 500 yards a day, though, I’m going to have to start swimming in the mornings, when there’s a 2 hour block of time, instead of in the evenings, when there’s only 90 minutes. Or, well, as Ted said, I’ll have to swim faster. :)

*God*, but I love swimming. You get in the zone and it’s like you’re flying. Your muscles are warm and don’t need that pesky oxygen stuff, and every stroke is a great stretch, and it just feels so *good*. My lungs feel all clear and capable and my muscles are a good kind of sore and loose and relaxed all at once, and *yeah*. Why don’t I do this *always*? Mmm, I just feel so good! *wriggle wriggle*! Oh, and I must be imagining it, because, like, only 4 days of exercise, but my cheekbones look have looked thinner to me the last couple of days. *dancie dance*!

swam: 3250 yards

feeling: awesome